Tuesday, June 24, 2008

Chaos

I haven't had much of interest to post for the last few days. Some chaos has been ruling my world, and it is very difficult not to write about it, which is what I normally do. Instead I'm keeping it all in and trying to figure it out on my own. There are good reasons I'm not writing about it here. You'll just have to bear with me while I get through this. I hope you'll stick around.

The chaos is making me tired and is making my pain level go through the roof. By all rights I should have gone to the hospital yesterday to get a shot or something to short circuit the pain, but instead I dealt with it at home. I tried to cancel my PT appointment, but he insisted he could help me. He didn't. Only time is going to help me.

It isn't easy to have everything you believe in thrown in your face like garbage. I'm not sure there's a shot to dull the pain of that.

Peace - D

12 comments:

Daryl said...

Oh Doris .. I am sorry that you are stressing ... its likely STRESS and not chaos is whats causing you the distress that is making you hurt ... I hope you can find your way through it w/o too much more pain.

:-Daryl

Lavinia Ladyslipper said...

Oh, dear Momma...I am really sorry to read this and learn of your pain...and you had some good days recently, I was hoping that would be the trend...

Life is not fair and sometimes deals us cruel blows, but I can't help but thinking that you have had more than your fair share and I want it to all go away from you....but feel so powerless, as there is nothing I can do other than offer you sympathy, (((hugs)))) and my dearest hopes and prayers that the sun breaks through the clouds, and soon, for you.

I have been in desolate places before and it is very difficult, during times like that, to hold it all together and believe that one day it will pass and things will improve....but each time, things *did* improve....I hope, fervently, the same for you...you are a valiant soul...hang in there Momma...

Lori said...

Oh, Momma -
I feel you. I've been absent from my blog for a while too, and have been so bogged down by "real" life that I couldn't make myself write or blog.
I hope that your life calms down soon - and mine as well.
Sometimes so much easier to have contact with the outside world when we don't feel like that Big Bad World is trying to stomp our little heads into the ground.
And hearts ...

Thinking of you !!!

Josie said...

Oh, gosh, Doris. I have been through times like that. You know, the blogging community is a real community of friends, and we are all here for you, any time you need to de-stress!!!

((((hugs))))

Josie

Coal Miner's Granddaughter said...

Hey, sweetie. I'm so sorry your life is in such flux. Don't forget that when you're ready, we're here to listen and give you support. Until then, do what you need to do to make it through. Love you!

Don Mills Diva said...

I don't know what you're dealing with but please know there are people out here who care...HUGS.

Not Afraid to Use It said...

Don't worry about having to explain to us. We'll be here for you when you feel like you can share. Hugs.

Maggie May said...

I am very sorry that you are so down. Not sure bottling up is the best way.
Hope that you are soon over it. ((Hugs))

CrazyCath said...

Oh Momma - the only shot that will dull that pain is time, and you know that already. It can be eased with talk to a trusted friend, but you'll know that too. Talking doesn't change anything - but it helps us get it into perspective and make a plan.

I hope things work out for you ok. It's hard when all you want to do is blog it and you can't.

Take care. (((Hugs)))

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SandyCarlson said...

I will keep you in my prayers. I hope everything will be OK.

Jennifer H said...

I hope your stress clears out soon and, with it, the pain.

Sending good thoughts.