Last year I lost 60 pounds. July 4th was the anniversary of the day I stopped the diet that helped me lose all that weight (Medifast), and I'd been hoping that on the anniversary I would be at the same weight or less. It didn't quite happen that way.
On the anniversary, I weighed about 5 or 6 pounds over my stopping weight. Still not bad, right? But it is such a slippery slope for me...probably for everyone. I had stopped at a BMI of 23.4, but now almost 15 months later I'm at 26.6. Yeah, I know. Some of you might be saying (as I once would have), "Lucky!" But I don't feel very lucky. Refer to my photo in the sidebar. See where it says, "I am my own worst enemy" over the top? Well, I am. I am not being very nice to myself right now.
I tried to go back on the diet, but because it has sucralose (Splenda) and the migraines have been so bad, it triggers me every time I try to start back on it. I can't tolerate artificial sweeteners of any kind. I'm truly not making excuses for myself here, but I am trying to figure out why this has happened and how to turn it around before I once again become pre-diabetic, have high cholesterol, and have higher blood pressure. I'm also vain enough that I don't want to give up shopping at Ann Taylor or Chico's or anything outside the plus sizes! So bear with me while I examine the last year or so...
- Medication changes in January that began to cause bloating and weight gain. Within 10 lbs., I was crying "uncle" and changing meds. The weight started to come back down.
- Daughter moved back in after our 25th anniversary trip in February. Between the holiday food and the stress of having her home (along with her male cat who tried to chase down every female in our house), the weight crept up again.
- Increased bouts of migraines have caused me to resort to a specific medication that I have always known will cause bloating and weight gain. It was the meds or the madness. I chose the meds.
- Stomach issues set in around May leading to a trip to the ER later in the summer. Add another medication for that (which I only take when I absolutely have to). They have been showing up off and on - nausea and stomach pain. Sometimes the only thing that will settle my stomach is a glass of soda with no ice. Since I can't have artificial sweeteners, I'm stuck with the sugared variety. (Incidentally, things like club soda and San Pelligrino just don't seem to help as much...not sure why).
- And then...maybe because of the stress and health problems, I've been making some bad choices. I don't eat tons of calories - no bingeing - but I don't always make the best choices. Why eat a food bar, when I could make myself a nice salad? Why eat a 100-calorie pack instead of an apple? The fruits and veggies would help me far more than soy-based, processed foods, I know; but when I'm stressed, when I'm in pain, or when I'm in a hurry, these are my "go to" foods.
And one more little factoid--I was an anorexic as a teen. I starved myself, was addicted to the scale, exercised like mad, and probably wrecked my metabolism as a result. Therefore, it's really hard for me to lose and keep weight off now, 30 years later.
I've been considering Weight Watchers so that I would have a multitude of choices from a list. I could choose foods that don't have sweeteners added, but I've read a few blogs of late in which WW is backfiring and isn't working as well as it could. Medifast was my "go to" plan, but it's not possible right now.
What would you do? What do you do to keep your weight down? I realize I'm 46, hitting menopause, and dealing with an array of health problems and medications. But I want to avoid more health problems and medications!
I'm open to suggestions here.
Peace - D