Friday, April 3, 2009

She's Gone




My daughter was found dead this morning.

I don't know yet if it was a drug overdose or the result of head trauma. If it's the latter there will be a murder case.

I'm going to fall apart now.

Will not be in NYC next week, obviously.

d

73 comments:

Coal Miner's Granddaughter said...

My darling, I'm so very sorry. I don't have the words, but I've got a pretty decent shoulder and a couple of ears. If you need to call and cry or talk or whatever, just do it.

Love you and carry all of our love with you.

septembermom said...

I'm so sorry.

Jeni said...

My sympathy, my heart goes out to you and your family. Please, take care, prayers will follow you too.

Maggie May said...

I don't know what to say! This has come as a terrible shock to me, so what it is doing to you is beyond my comprehension.

Please, look after yourself.
Will hold you up in prayer and be assured that I am truly sorry and wish I could do something to help. ((hugs))

Kim said...

There are no words to say what I wish for you. Please stay safe and take care.

Mike Golch said...

Sorry for your loss sounds so small a thing to say.My prayers are with you and your family.

Leslie: said...

Oh my God, Doris! I am SO sorry for what you're going through. When my husband killed himself, I went into shock and to this day don't remember much of the following two years. Just take it a step at a time and know there are many many people who care for you and are praying that you will be able to get through this. I still worry, too, that I might get a call like this about one of my daughters.

Mari said...

I'm here from Mike's blog to offer my sympathy and prayers. There are no other words that I can say at a time like this.

Syd said...

D., I too don't know what to say, other than I am thinking of you and of your daughter. I cannot imagine this loss.

Mary@Holy Mackerel said...

I don't know what to say except I'm so very sorry, but those words don't express what I truly feel right now for you.

I don't know you personally, but I feel so bad for you. I can't even imagine the pain you are going through.

I'll be thinking of you.

Mental P Mama said...

Oh my God. Please, please know you are in my thoughts. I cannot begin to imagine your heartache. Sending light and strength. Lauren

Amber said...

CMGD directed us on twitter over here...

Just wanted to express my deepest sympathies.

Your daughter's beautiful.

I'll be keeping you - and yours - in my prayers.

Please don't hesitate to reach out if anyone can help during this devastating time.

I am so very, very, sorry...

God bless.

TSannie said...

My heart is breaking right along with yours. Many hugs to you, my friend. I am so very very sorry.

JC said...

I just came over from Mike's site. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm lifting you and your family up in my prayers.

Marty said...

This is heartbreaking for all of your online friends, we are keeping you and your WHOLE family in our prayers.

Peace

SandyCarlson said...

I am so very, very sorry. You are in my prayers, dear friend.

Not Afraid to Use It said...

I lit my candle as soon as I heard. I am so deeply sorry. Anything that we can do for you and Pete please do not hesitate. Know that we send you love and peace.

Sandra said...

Just came over from Mike's site....I'm SO very sorry. I'm praying for you.

matkins said...

I am so very sorry for your loss

Merrily Down the Stream said...

Came over from Coal Miners Daughter. I am so sorry for your loss and I will be holding you and your daughter in the light.

terancedubya said...

I am so sorry. CMGD has directed me here a few times and I am sad I am here under these circumstances. I send my love.

Anonymous said...

I learnt of the tragic loss of your daughter from CMD earlier tonight. I know I speak for all of us when I say that if it were possible we would share your pain and ease your burden. That cannot be so please be assured that unknown friends are thinking of-and in our own ways praying for- you and your family tonight.

longpour said...

CMDG informed me of your sad and most tragic loss. You and your daughter are uppermost in my thoughts tonight. I pray that your most grievious pain is eased.

Don Mills Diva said...

Oh my God.

My heart is breaking for you...

Ana said...

I'm very sorry. I came because of Mike's blog and I'm trying to offer my sympathy.
My prayers go for all of you.

Mike Golch said...

when I was here eairler,you did not have your daughter's photo.Such a lovely life cut short.{{{{HUGS and Prayers}}}

HEATHER said...

I came over from CMGD and I want to say how terribly sorry I am. I saw your comment on Heather's blog, and I have to tell you that love survives death. She knows you loved her. Even though her body is gone, her spirit is very close to you right now, just tell her how much you love her.

Nanna said...

Doris, I am so so sorry. Please know you're in my thoughts and prayers tonight.

Cloudia said...

Dear Friend:
Please accept my sincere and heartfelt aloha & condolence.

You will be close to me heart and thoughts in these times.

God Bless you always.

the walking man said...

Pull yourself together Doris, your daughter needs you, your husband, and her brother one last time.

Now is not the time for words so I will offer none beyond what I already have.

Moannie said...

My tears are flowing for your loss knowing that this was your greatest fear. Dear Doris, know that we who have grown to know you and love you are sending all our strength and love to support you in these dark days.

Hilary said...

I'm so sorry. You'll be in my thoughts. Keep writing.

Shadow said...

my deepest condolences. you are in my prayers, and lots of love and strength in this time...

cw2smom said...

OMG! I am so very sorry! Hugs, Love and Prayers, Lisa

Kim said...

I am so, so sorry for your loss. I can't begin to imagine what you are going through. Please know that you will be in my thoughts and prayers.

Alix said...

Just heard--I came over from Syd's blog.
I will hold you in my prayers and thoughts. I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter.
Much strength to you at this rough time.

Robin said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts...

sybil law said...

CMGD directed me here...
I wish I had condoling words for you - what a terrible tragedy..
My thoughts and prayers are with you...
xoxo

J said...

I am so terribly sorry. Formulaic words, but even though I don't know you, there are heartfelt. I will be thinking of you, and your daughter and your family.

Ashlie- Mommycosm said...

Here from CMGD's post - but I've been a lurker in the past.

Please know you have a lot of people sending prayers/positive energy your way, myself included.

DutchBitch said...

Here thru CMG. I can't even begin to imagine what you are feeling. Wishing you all the strength in the world!

Akelamalu said...

Oh my God I am so, so, very sorry m'dear. I don't know what to say other than I will be thinking of you during these dark days in front of you. I'll send Reiki to your daughter to help her on her journey home, and to you and the rest of your family, I hope it will help ease the pain. Know that people are thinking of you. x

Indigo said...

I'm sorry doesn't even touch on the level of compassion I wish I could convey in light of your loss. You're in my thoughts dear friend. I'm keeping you and your family in my prayers on the smoke during this time of sorrow. (Hugs)Indigo

Annette said...

Doris, I am here from Syd's blog...I am so sorry for your loss of your beautiful girl. There are no words. My heart goes out to you and I am keeping you in my prayers. (((HUG)))

nola said...

Oh, honey. How awful. I know she had her demons, but no parent should outlive their child. My heart and thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Barbara(aka Layla) said...

My heart is hurting for you and your family. I am so sorry...

ConverseMomma said...

Oh....I don't know what to say. Oh. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I'm here. Okay. I'm here. Sweetie, I'm sorry.

Jo said...

Omigod, Doris! I am so sorry. I am so sorry! My deepest condolences to you and your family. I don't know what to say...

(((hugs)))
Josie

vicariousrising said...

I am so sorry for your loss.

Avitable said...

What a horrible tragedy. Please accept my sincere condolences on your loss.

Fat, frumpy and fifty... said...

D. I am so sorry and heartbroken for you.
Know that I am thinking of you and yours and that know so many of us love you...


Saz XX

Queenneenee said...

I am very sorry to hear about your beautiful daughter. I lost a sister in the same manner, its heartbreaking. I will certainly pray for you and your family.

Jenn said...

Came over here from CMGD...my heart is breaking for you. So sorry for your loss...

Kim A. said...

D..I am a new reader thru a mutual friend. I pray as only a mother can that your Higher Power meet you where your needs are. My thoughts are with you.

Namaster

david mcmahon said...

Dear Doris,

I only just found out the news from Sazfab, who emailed me.

As a parent of three, there is no greater fear than the safety of a child.

My deepest and most sincere condolences.

You and your entire family are in our thoughts and prayers.

God bless

David

Daryl said...

(((Doris))))

molly said...

I can't imagine what this is like for you and your family.

molly g

Ruth D~ said...

Doris . . . I cry as I write this. I have no words to give comfort. Just know that if I could lessen your pain I would, but all I can do is join you in your grief.

So, so sorry to hear this.

Joe said...

I am so sorry for your loss, my sincere condolences to you and your family.

Hilary said...

I am so, so sorry for this heartache. My thoughts are with you, dear one.

SOUL: said...

doris--she is beautiful.

my thoughts are with you-
HUGS

Ms Hen said...

(hugs)

Woman in a Window said...

Oh love, dear sweet woman, no.
erin

TraceyBaby said...

I should have read this first, Doris.

~No more words~

Just hugs

~T~

louisey said...

Here from Syd's blog -- deepest sympathy, such a terrible thing to happen.

xxMary LA

Gary said...

I'm one of the editors at the Internet Review of Books, and Carter told us of your loss. I'm deeply sorry, and I pray for peace for you, your family, and all those who loved your daughter. I once read that God asks that we pray for grace to live "within the holy mysteries of our lives." I hope that grace finds you.

Employee No. 3699 said...

Doris

Tragic and so, so sad. I can't even imagine what you are going through. Please know that you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Though these are just 'words' they truly are coming from my heart.

Miss Britt said...

There are no words. Just know that a little corner of the world here in Florida stopped for you and your daughter today.

Because when something like this happens, the whole world should stop. If even for a moment.

Skye said...

I am so, so sorry.

Jay said...

I'm so sorry, so very sorry, Doris. And I'm sorry I missed this at the time.

There are no words that I can say that can possibly make a difference, but I wanted you to know that I'm thinking of you and holding you in my heart.

® ♫ The Brit ♪ ® said...

Hi D
I have been absent from blogging for a while and have only just seen your devastating news....
I am so, so sorry to hear this, I don't know what to say as I know that in times like this no words can give comfort...
May your Darling Daughter rest in peace, keep strong my Dear Friend, thinking of you and my prayers are with you and your family at this terrible time xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Big Hugs and Love
Donnie xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Damama T said...

You are so right - this is not something a parent should have to do. It's all backwards. And it stinks. I'm so sorry that you and your family are having to go through this. For the little that it may help, I will keep you all in my prayers. God bless you all.

ps: Just as an FYI, I came over from Burgh Baby's tweet.

Carol said...

Doris...I am so so sorry. You will be in my daily prayers.

Carol