Although I listened to "Freedom" (George Michael) a couple of times today, I also listened to "Stop This World" (Ne-Yo), which was supposed to be our wedding song. For the second time since I left, I stopped feeling shell-shocked and just let the tears come. I'm brokenhearted, but I'm not broken.
Here are some of the positive things I did today:
- Got out of bed at a decent hour
- Went for a visit with my therapist; she gave me the second hour free
- Cleaned house (at least partially...lots more to do)
- Went to Borders bookstore for the first time in 8 months; had a coffee; browsed
Someday I'll be ready to move on. I will stop thinking I did something to cause what happened. I'll be able to remember the good things about the relationship and forget the bad (except to note what I will NOT accept).
Thank you all for your continued readership and support. Peace - D
The two songs mentioned are available here: